Nothing Personal.
October 2011 - period where in I had a little inspiration to run my online diary because nothing special had taken place. I didn’t want to post about how utterly alone I felt when I’m at certain place where I spend almost 10 hours a day and 5 days a week (making it too obvious, haha). It had been pretty hard for me due to the midyear clearance given 3 days before the periodical exams. I was cramming to complete my requirements and to finish my clearance in time. Then, I needed a break to review for the tests.
I’m worried about my grades because I really want to be included in the top 10 so I promised myself that I would give my best to avoid the computer at all times. My blog had been a complete distraction for me and I don’t want that to stop me from fulfilling my promise. I felt like I’ve been neglecting my studies and putting a little effort in it.
Sadly, I’m a graduating student and I would like to leave my own legacy in my Alma Mater. When I was in 2nd year, I started to be this carefree girl who didn’t study hard which resulted to my low ranking. Similar scenario during my 3rd year and I’m not gonna let that happen this time around. I’ve been saying this in the past 2 years, “Babawi ako next quarter.” The last quarter came and the only thing I could say was, “May next year pa naman eh.” This is it, my last year in highschool. I would love to make the most out of it.
I beat around the bush, don’t you think? To put it simply, there were several reasons as to why I’m not posting ‘personal’ stuff.
- I lack inspiration.
- I don’t have an interesting life, I’ll probably bore you to death.
- I need to focus and keep away from distractions.
Let me clear something, my studies is not the only problem here since this post emphasized it. Maybe, I have a lot of things in my mind right now.. regarding my family & friends, my feelings and the vague future ahead of me.
PS: I’ve formulated a fictional story but I am not sure how to write it because I think it will not make sense. I’m not a good writer and I have this tendecy to babble and mix up things.
Anyway.. Goodbye October! Hello November! <3
