Are we… ?

I’ve been single for years and every time someone pursues me, I don’t give them the chance to do so. Last year, someone tried really hard to win my heart. He did everything and even gave me something to remember. Time passed by and he found the girl that reciprocates the same feelings he has for her. I’m happy for him, after all, we’re still friends even though the closeness faded. 

Moving on, a Boy-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named is doing the same thing. We text each other but we don’t talk personally. I find it quite ironic. Plus, he gave me something special on my birthday. Because I wanted to give something really nice since this is our last Christmas party together, I decided to give him a small gift. He gave me something as well but he didn’t hand it to me directly. In return, I asked one of my classmates to hand over my gift to him. 

The thing is, the day before our Christmas Party the Boy-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named asked me if I’m going somewhere after the event.. “I’m not sure,” that’s what I said. My friends wanted to go to a friend’s house and they invited me first.. so I’m going with them. Then, the day itself, he asked if I’m free to go the mall.. “…I don’t have money,” that was my lame excuse. It was half-true considering the fact that I was not given a pocket money (baon) that day and I didn’t even bother to check my purse. 

Before going to my friend’s house, we had our pictures taken in a studio and headed to Pizza Hut for our lunch. Something happened but I will not narrate the story behind it because I don’t have the power to do so.. and I’m skipping some petty details. A boy approached me handing me crumpled paper bills from the Boy-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named. I humbly told him to give back the money to its owner because I simply don’t need it.

Right before we order, I looked into my purse and realized that I had enough money to survive the day. Some girls would have instantly accepted the money.. but I’m not one of them. I went out and returned his money without even saying a word. Here’s my reason: I DON’T WANT HIM TO THINK THAT I’M TAKING HIM FOR GRANTED. I hope he understands me. Anyway, while computing how much our bill was, my friends joked that I should have accepted the money so that we can don’t have to share for the payment. Deep inside, here’s what was I thinking.. “I will.. if only he was with us,” that was my fair judgement.

He even told me this through a text message, “Ang gara mo. :(” I was getting pretty annoyed so I just replied with, “Sorry.” Another thing, my friends gave him my picture in a frame.. he asked if I knew about this and I didn’t reply. Let me clear something, when he asked for my picture.. I immediately told him that I won’t give him any because I looked really weird. The picture frame was a crazy idea and I argued with my friends if they were serious about it.. clearly, it was not my idea. When we went shopping for gifts, I said that I will just look for a wallet and put my picture inside.. I was just fooling around, mind you. Someone implanted this silly thought (you know who you are, haha.) I had no idea that they took what I said seriously. 

Anyway, enough of my story and explanation. As I type this, I received a load worth 50 pesos and I’m guessing that it came from the Boy-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.