Behind The Mask

Uunahan ko na kayo, hindi ko siya boyfriend o kung ano pa man kaya wag kayong mag-isip ng malisya. Gusto ko lang ididedicate to sa kanya kasi nakita ko ‘tong 15 Day Crush Challenge at wala akong magawa.. ito ang kinalabasan, gagawin kong isang post na lahat. Lilinawin ko na din, naging crush ko siya pero di ko siya crush ngayon… dati lang yun.

What is his name/nickname? Audie Reyes
When did I first meet him? Matagal na kaming magka-schoolmate pero nung grade 6 lang talaga kami nagkakilala kasi magkaklase kami at naging seatmates.
Where did I first meet him? Sa school, St. Paul School of Sta. Maria to be exact.
What do I like about his physical appearance? Ahem, siguro yung malalim niyang dimples kasi konti lang ang may ganon.
What do I like about his personality? Yung pagiging gentleman niya. Yung may tinatago siyang kalokohan kahit na laging seryoso ang itsura niya. Yung pagiging confident niya. At higit sa lahat, he reminds me of Sir Dex!
Post a quote that reminds me of him: Pwde bang one word na lang, wala akong maisip eh: Sampanaw!
Post the lyrics of a song that reminds me of him: I know it makes no sense but what else can I do.. how can I move on when I’m still in love with you? Actually yung buong kanta na The Man Who Can’t Be Moved by The Script kasi siya yung nagsuggest sakin nun dati at siya na din ang nagpakilala sakin ng The Script.
Will I ever date him? Uhmm, ewan. Siguro.
Describe my feelings for him: Siya lang ata ang bukod tanging naging crush ko ng seryoso at maraming may alam nun, haha. Yun lang ata masasabi ko. At naging awkward ang lahat nung grade 6 kasi umamin siya sakin na may gusto siya sakin at since then, hindi na kami nag-usap, haha!
What is my favorite memory of him? Nung may nagbigay sakin ng Ferrero, pumunta siya ng Mercury at bumili ng Toblerone kasi may nagsabi sa kanya na mas gusto ko ang Toblerone. Nung pinakasal kami sa marriage booth tapos umarte siya na parang divorce na kami at nakuhanan pa yun ng video.. nakakatawa yun pag naalala ko.
Write a letter to him: Hindi naman siguro kailangan mahaba. Ito siguro masasabi ko: Thank you sa lahat ng memories na meron ako dahil sayo, sorry sa lahat ng mga kasalanan ko sayo, sa pagsusungit at hindi pagpansin. I just wish for the best and goodluck sa college life! I hope we meet again.
Is he the type of person you usually fall for? Why/why not? That would be a yes. Kasi wala ka na naman sigurong hihilingin pa sa kanya, di ba? Mabait, may itsura, gentleman.. hindi ko na siguro kailangang isa-isahin pa yung positive traits niya.
Is there anything I dislike about him? Yung pag nababalitaan ko na nagkakasalubong kami sa corridors o nagkikita kami, akala niya lagi na lang ako nang-iirap at iniirapan ko siya. Seryoso? Bakit ko naman gagawin yun?
Write them a poem/song: Mahirap ‘to.. pero habang sinusulat ko yung recent kong poem, bigla na lang siya pumasok sa kokote ko. Ito oh, natatawa ako sa sarili ko, tssk.
Compliment him and post his reply: Kunwari siya kaharap ko pero wag na nating ilagay ang reply niya. Like I always say, lagi kang ngingiti kasi sayang yung dimples mo.. konti lang ang binigyan ni Lord niyan. Saka why are you such a gentleman? Last year ng highschool, lumakas din ang appeal mo at dumami ang nagkaron ng crush sayo. Ayun lang.

Sinagot ko yung mga tanong as honest as possible. Ayoko namang lokohin yung sarili ko kasi challenge nga, di ba? Pero kung may makabasa man nito na nakakilala sakin.. kung may gusto pa kayong itanong, feel free to ask. Nga pala, never naging kami dahil walang ligawang nangyari. Pero alam ng mga kapamilya ko ang storya na ‘to. Nung graduation at nung gratitude day, hinanap pa ni Ate si Audie.. akala nila may something pa din pero sinabi ko lang na may nililigawang iba yung tao kaya tumigil din sila. Friends kami. O siguro acquaintance lang kasi di naman kami nag-uusap at nung graduation na ang last day na magkikita kami? May pagkakaiba ba yun? May picture kami nung graduation kasi nung nabanggit na naman siya ni ate, nasa likod lang pala si Audie kasama ang ate niya… kaya ayan! Natatawa pa ako sa comment ni Ate kasi may chemistry daw at kailangan daw akong panagutan. Nung una, di ko gets pero tignan niyo na lang yung picture. :)

My newest crush! Jung Il Woo, the real name of Cha Chi Soo who starred in Flower Boy Ramyun Shop.

The hottest, coolest and most handsome guy in St. Paul College of Bocaue is my dearest adviser, Mr. Dexter Feliciano.

I admit, I liked you.

He might be the number one reason why I enjoyed my second year life. Even though he was not aware of it that time, he made a huge impact on me which I can’t even explain. He was my guy bestfriend. Our classmates even told us that we would make a cute couple in the future. They were betting on him. Thinking about it, it might be an awkward situation… but as far as I can remember, it didn’t affect how he treated me. What they say… You and me. Us. Another year had gone by and I assure you that it will never happen.

He can effortlessly make me laugh, that’s probably one of the good things I liked about him. The times that I’m with him, I feel so care-free. The atmosphere in the room while he was there seemed to be radiating happiness. I can show off my ‘natural’ smile because of him. When it comes to other people, I usually put on a fake grin. I think, that’s what make him unique and exceptional above other ordinary guys. He has a wide sense of humor. He is special in his own little ways. He can make himself stand out among the rest.

Back then, we talked about a lot of things.. his past relationships, his crushes, almost everything under the sun. I was comfortable being near him. It’s not my character to be close to guys… but I’m completely different when it comes to him. My friends even said that I’m giving him a special treatment. Recalling it, it seemed to be a little absurd. I’ve always helped him almost about anything… whether it comes to homework or courting a girl he likes. Sometimes, I’m definitely weird.

There were some moments that I can never forget. I would want to share some of it but it’s too personal and private. There were times when his gestures were sweet that you can’t help yourself but… to like him. Back then, he confessed that he liked me in one of our Y!M conversations. I was smiling. Deep down, I’ve wanted to pour out my feelings, too. I knew that I should take the risk. I didn’t, because it will not make any difference. Besides, he’s not the serious type. Anyway, I’m just stating his positive attitude.. the things that made him attractive. I don’t want to say his negative characteristics. His fame and ‘reputation’ might get affected.

Many things have changed. People forget. Memories fade. Feelings go away. Life still goes on no matter what happens. There’s one thing I guarantee: I have moved on. I don’t like him anymore.

(Source: lovequotesrus)