Pa-fall daw ako.

Pinakamasakit na salita na maaring mong marinig… pero hindi ako naapektuhan kasi hindi naman totoo. Tinawanan ko lang ito nung sinabi sakin ng isa sa mga pinakamalapit kong kaibigan (hindi ako galit ha). Hindi ko rin maitindihan kung bakit nagiging pa-fall ang isang tao.. pero paano mo ba masasabing pa-fall ang isang tao?

• Yung nagbibigay motibo na mahalin siya pero wala naman siyang balak na panindigan o saluhin kung na-fall na yung tao.
• Yung pinaglalaruan yung feelings ng isang tao lalo na pag may gusto sayo.
• Sa mga lalaki, ito yung nanliligaw sa una.. sweet siya, tapos biglang mawawala na parang bula.
• Ito yung mga taong nagiging mabait sa iba tapos nabibigyan ng ibang kahulugan yung ginagawa nila.
• Pa-asa.

Wala akong ibang motibo kundi makipagkaibigan. Wala naman akong pinipiling tao eh, lahat naman kinakausap ko. Madali mo akong magiging ka-close kapag naging seatmates tayo kasi madalas akong nakikipagdaldalan kapag maraming napagkukwentuhan. Nagiging mabait naman ako sa lahat pero may pagkakataon talaga na masungit ako, hindi mawawala yun.

Hindi ko naman hinangad na may magkagusto sakin dahil una sa lahat, hindi naman ako kagandahan. Hindi ako yung tipo ng babae na mapapansin mo kaagad, simple lang ako. Hindi ko binababa ang sarili ko, ito lang talaga yung nakikita ko.

Huli sa lahat, hinding hindi ko paglalaruan ang feelings ng isang tao. Hindi ko magagawa yun. Kahit hindi ako sanay sa mga ganitong sitwasyon, hangga’t maaari gusto kong sabihin yung totoo ng walang nasasaktan. 

Is this like ME?

Passionate
You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don’t tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back. You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.

Scrupulous
You are an honest, fair person. You don’t lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return. You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.

Upbeat
You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a “live and let live” attitude; because you know that no one’s perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt. You don’t feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.

Sympathetic
You have a knack for knowing what’s going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand. You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Original
You are constantly coming up with new ideas. For you, the world as it exists is just a jumping-off place; what’s going on inside your mind is often more interesting than what’s going on outside. You don’t feel that the road to success is to be a realist and stick to the program; you never stop yourself from coming up with new ideas or telling the world what you’re thinking about.

Assertive
You behave in a confident and forceful manner, take charge of the situation, raise your hand in class, stand up for what you think is right, and lead others. Among those who have a high score on the “assertive” trait, many have jobs in which they are valued for their organizational skills as well as their talent for supervising others. You are not interested in fading into the woodwork, leaving everything to fate, taking more time than necessary to accomplish a task, or avoiding confrontation.

Warm
You have a genuine interest in other people. You’re a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you’re usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the “warm” trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place. You don’t always say exactly what you’re thinking; you don’t like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.

Tender
You are gentle with others, both physically and emotionally. You are careful not to upset people and go out of your way to find the nicest way to say something. You naturally focus on the fact that the world is full of wonderful people, places, and things. More often than not, people with a high score on the “tender” trait enjoy spending time with children, love romantic movies, and are enthusiastic about making the world a better place. You don’t think of yourself as tough-minded or gruff, nor do you need to be seen as some kind of objective source of truth and rationality.

Empathetic
You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others. You don’t buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else’s because unless you’re happy you’re incapable of making anyone else happy.

Organized
You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it’s the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it’s only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you’re not satisfied until you reach it. You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don’t understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time.

You be the judge, but there are some descriptions that best fit me. Take your Personality test here. 

Ateneo Essay

   “Experience is the best teacher,” this is the most important lesson that my mother and my teachers had taught me. Being the youngest child in the family, my experiences compared to my siblings are of little meaning – that’s what I thought when I was still innocent and know nothing about how hard life is. Honestly, I’m still in the process of knowing who I really am and what I truly want.  As I grow up, I’ve come to realized that age doesn’t affect how you view your own experiences and accomplishments. Looking back, I have accumulated and acquired a lot of significant experiences and notable accomplishments that have helped me defined who I am right now.

   Graduating elementary with flying colors was remarkable and unexpected. At the same time, it was the happiest moment in my life. All the hard work I exerted had paid off when I became our class valedictorian. This was my notable accomplishment and I would not have done it without my mom serving as my inspiration and my strength. I remembered when I had a homework that I couldn’t understand; I didn’t know what to do and asked for my mother’s assistance.  She replied, “I was absent when my teacher discussed that lesson.” Every time I get help from her, she would say the exact same thing. My instant reaction was to laugh, thinking that it was only a joke. One time, I politely asked my mom about it. She narrated how my grandparents didn’t send her to college because they couldn’t afford the tuition. As a mother, she didn’t want me to have the same poignant experience so she gave me a lecture that struck and caught my attention: “When I die, education is the only treasure that I could give to you that no one else could steal or get from you.” This anecdote encouraged me to study and to make a change. From that moment on, I prioritize my studies before anything else. I’m proud to say that I was able to give back my mother’s wish: to have good grades in school. As a compensation for her donkeywork to send me in a private Catholic school, I dutifully do my job and obligations as a diligent student and as a loving daughter.

   My significant experience was losing the previous presidential elections for the student council or what we call Highschool Board of Students (HSBS) in our school by 8 points. This was one of the greatest frustrations I have. There were unfamiliar faces and friends from other year levels in the campus approaching me and saying, “You’re the winner for us! You’re our only president!” This had caught me off guard; the overwhelming amount of support they had given made me cry. All things considered, I’ve been a part of this organization ever since I entered highschool. I was elected as the 1^st year Governor, appointed as the Assistant Secretary when I was in 2^nd year and voted as the Academic Secretary when I was in 3^rd year. As of the moment, I’m acting as the Assistant Secretary. My goal was to become the president of the HSBS since 1^st year. To be at the top, starting from scratch is the basic method. In the long run, I’ve joined several leadership trainings which aided me to become more responsible and more reliable. I’m an active delegate of those kinds of activities and the next thing you know, I became the facilitator that guides the other participants. “Leaders are not born, they are made.”and “Leaders are lawmakers, not lawbreakers,” these are the things I have keep in mind. I’m fully aware of the great responsibilities of being a student leader and I’m ready to accept any challenges that lie ahead in the future. I have learned that the position is not a factor in determining the effectiveness of one’s leadership. As long as you love what you’re doing, you’ll become a great leader. I will not survive the pressure without the passion that motivates me. After everything else, my leadership skills and my experience have broadened my horizon and knowledge as I face the trials in life. Following the rules is essential and a leader must impose it to everyone – equality, which means the person in charge must also follow the regulations. It is the first big step to being an effective leader. Becoming a leader for the past few years have helped me become accountable for my own deeds and words.

   Like a typical person living in this world, I’ve had ups and downs. I’ve received a handful of criticisms and an ample amount of compliments. Compliments symbolize people’s appreciation of what you do. It boosts my confidence whenever someone gives me compliment but I never let it stay inside my head easily because I don’t want to become overconfident. Instead of being hurt, I accepted the criticisms as a motivation to do better. Make it constructive, not destructive. There are times when I’m at the top and there are a few occasions that I’m at the bottom. I have attained a lot from my simple experiences and prominent accomplishments. I don’t let my accomplishments define who I am but the values I gained from it had been of great guidance in determining my personality. Through all of these, I have learned to stand on my own feet with the guidance of God the Father. Without Him, I wouldn’t be here right now. Because of Him, I was able to conquer the hindrances that blocked my way. I’m grateful to be who I am. 

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I’m a nitwit!

I’m disappointed because I always fail to remember my password, username and everything that’s necessary to access my accounts. I tried Multiply when I was in 6th grade but I can’t understand the mechanics and how to edit my profile, therefore, I simply deleted it without even thinking. I’ve ogling at several online shops for the past few weeks and I wanted to try online shopping.. it will be easier if I have a Multiply account so I decided to join the community again for the second time. As I typed “ellagener” as my username, my access was denied since ‘ellagener’ was already in use. See it for yourself how corny my old account was, click here. I searched for many possible ways on how to remember my password and use my account again.. but nothing seems to be effective. 

I made my move! I sent a report to their Customer Service Team. I wish they do something about this because I’m desperate to get rid of that silly account and make a new one!